It's One of Those Days

It's 5 minutes to lunch the last time I checked.

Gloomy outside, a little breezy,
the day hints of melancholy
and as much as I want to avoid it,
I can't help but absorb the atmosphere.

I said I wouldn't post any sad stuff here
but I can't help it.
Let's let it slide just this once.

Maybe the idea of being new @ work,
having no close friends to hang out with,
and being out of my comfort zone,
helps aggravate my 'mild misery'.

I was happy yesterday.
Happy, as in relaxed, calm, and content.
Not ecstatic or laughing my head off.
Not great joy; More of a quiet sort.

I realized that happiness
is not something you look for.
It's just something you have to be.
Something you do.
Your choice, your doing.

Lemme try to condition myself again.
Reading notes about happiness works.
Now I'm off to lunch.

fate & free will

just would like to note down one realization:

life is all about our choices.
whatever we choose, that is our fate.
so keep moving forward!