Remember Patience

So I'm to start as a chat support rep on June 17.
Orientation is on the 13th.
And yes I'm putting that all here to remind myself of these V.I. dates.

I'm not really excited. As we speak. Or as I type.
Maybe it's the heat and the way I'm sweating like a pig right now.
Or maybe it's just me.
Yes, yes, no to gloomy stuff here.
I can still remember what I said in my past post.

Still, where will I post these ramblings?
these doubts? these weaknesses?
these weakening of the spirit?
okaay, emo. I know.

Maybe I'm just feeling down because of boredom?
I know I saw someone post something like,
'so bored, starting to be depressed'
or something like that.
Maybe it's just that.

Random Stuff

I don't think I'll ever have the time to edit this particular post.
I'm not even sure if I have anything worth posting here.
Just want to say hi to my blog.
It's been a while. Really.

So the thing is (sorry TL can't help it)
I found this job ad
It starts on the 6th and I'm still here,
waiting
for wut, I dunno.
Or maybe I'm, once again, in my signature zombie-like trance.

It happens when something important occurs in my life.
I can't decide as quickly as I want to and yet I know,
I really, really know how important this thing is.
I mean, camon.
I've wanted this kind of job for a long time
And now it's here. humehello na
wut the hell am I doing, dumbstruck?
ngrrr...get.out.of.this.trance. NOW.
yun lang.

not a writer. sad.

I don't think I'll ever be a writer.
It's a job, right? A job has deadlines. And what I write, it's not restricted to deadlines. It shouldn't be. It will wither and die if there is a 'date-and/or-time-to-finish' set to it.

Anyhoo, I love the idea of a blog.
However, I think I've been ignoring it for months now.
I just can't seem to write.
Is it a block maybe? There are so many things to write about but for some reason, I can't put it into words. I'm not in a haste to write about anything, but, I feel like a lot of note-worthy things are being missed.
Maybe I should've attempted to write about them now. But I wouldn't be able to give them justice if I do it at this point.

So, they'll just have to wait?

Nah, life starts anew everytime and so would my notes.